“I didn’t know 40 men was more than most women sleep with in a lifetime. All I knew was that I felt good about myself when I was having sex.”
Crystal claims she has always practiced safe sex. She isn’t able to have children but ensures she doesn’t contract any STDs.
While most women are looking for men interested in a commitment, with Crystal that couldn’t be further from the truth.
“I didn’t understand why they couldn’t just enjoy the sex and walk away,” she says.
Like any addiction, if Crystal doesn’t get what she wants she feels moody and frustrated.
“I’d begin to feel hungry for sex,” she says. “I’d go on the prowl for men on my lunch breaks. If I didn’t manage to have sex I’d be unproductive all afternoon.
“At the weekends, I’d leave the house in the middle of the day to find men at pubs or coffee shops to pick up and take home. The feeling of satisfaction is almost instant.
“If I go without for a few days I start to feel desperately low, depressed and lack energy. I begin to see men as sexual objects. Walking along the street my mind races with thoughts of sex, especially with younger men.”
“On a bad day I’d have sex with seven different guys in 24 hours, sometimes a few at a time. It was difficult to fit it all in the day. I would sleep with a man in the morning, one at lunch and then as many as possible in the evening.”
As she hit 35, Crystal began to realize most of her friends were settling down, getting married and having families.
“Watching them was strange for me. “I still craved going out and meeting men, so I ditched them and made new, younger friends so I could carry on clubbing and going to pubs.
“I didn’t want to go to dinner parties and talk about current affairs. I wanted sex. And I wasn’t going to get it there”.
At 40, Crystal finally confronted her addiction.
“I know I’m a sex addict, but I can’t face getting professional help,” she says. “Sex is the only thing that makes me feel good about myself. I’m a member of online dating website CougarLife.com, which helps me find men who can keep up with my high sex drive.
“I guess when the men start saying no, I’ll stop having sex. I know some people must think I’m a terrible person, but believe me I’m not proud of myself.”
